update

didnt hav the time and mood blog these days as my days were fulled with activities and reports and self conflicts.
just stopped doing my report,leaving it undone.
19th june,prepared 4 the asean fest last minute frm 10am.4pm,went to komaba to help the decoration team up as they were doing it last minute too.me,tj and junhao hv been offered accommodation in komaba as our decoration work would take a long time.i stayed a night there in an indonesian named irma.she is a nice gurl and the thing that impressed me was her room!it was tidy and clean!the banner i have made with four japanese frends i have know on the day, and tj
20th june,the day had come.tj was the mc and i was just helping out on the hall setting,taking over the malaysia food booth,selling the nasi tomato,nasi ayam,roti jala,kuih and nasi lemak.i enjoyed sellimg as ppl kept coming to buy!hehe.
the main reason i was there,in the hall,bcz, i was one of the planner of sharing session.i wasnt worrying about the things we going to do,bt not until junhao asked me whether i had the confidence in making the session successful.i wasnt sure.finding the faci for my batu seremban session at the last minute,and everything was just like mess,rushed,ben foo,the president of msaj,asked me how was i going to handle the session,how to attract ppl to join the session.and i just realised that we didnt look into more detail.couldnt blame tj bcz he was in charged on being the mc.so i was the one to be blamed.i felt bad as calvin,junhao,faizal and some seniours frm uni heard the conversation btwn me and ben foo.he was expecting me to go to the stage and talk,bt i just didnt.felt bad.the results was,ben and tj handled the situation and i was just demonstrate the batu seremban on the stage with suzana,keng yaw and another malay gurl.haiz.
the asean fest have led me to get to knw 4 japanese.and of coz a lot of malaysian.especially suzana!the most pleased one.

the one week after that, we had a factory visiting on thursday. we went to a steel manufacturing factory, which is very famous in japan,The Nippon Steel..it was in Chiba prefecture which is 1.30hrs from my kosen..the journey was long but i enjoyed the scenery of Tokyo city from ,viewing from the highway, the city was aligning with the coast of Japan sea..skycrapers along the sea coast, its a total difference in the sense of feeling..
the factory was big!! as if it could locate 4 tesco mall's inside..
about the content, wont talk much about it, since i am sort of time for my reports!lol!
first time in my life time visiting a factory and it was a huge and prestigious factory ..
it amazed me that i wondered how rich is the owner of the factory.. hmm.. i wish i were rich like him..==

realised that i didnt call my family for 2 weeks ..
i have been busy.. sorry!!!mum and dad!

27th june 2010, was the day i attended the MSAJ(malaysian students association in Japan) for the first time, and i was attending as a vice secretary.. i was nervous actually, but tried to control before hand. met some of my sempais there.. the meeting ws quit boring , not untill Ben Foo, the president scolded one of the head of bureaus, and he took me and Tj as the bad exmale. He said that we didnt look and lan into detail for the shaing session for the ASEAN Festival..
OKAY< fine,!if u wannted to scold us or show off or whatever, its fine!i knw i was wrong! but was it neccessary for u to mention about it in front of all the members of MSAJ,..?? gosh..nevermind, let it be. wont care so much..
after the meeting, was the happiest time for the hectic week. i dated Suzana, the malay gurl i knw during the ASEAN Festival.we went to shinjuku , shopping!! first destination, Forever 21.. hehe.. it was n sale everywhere since it is the chnging of season.(spring to summer)
i bought myself a blue strips singlet , a pair of sandals and a necklace !!! hehe... not satisfied with the shopping actually.
went for luch at 4pm in McDonald's with suzana. we talked a lot. i like her vey much, she is pretty, cute, joyous and the most impressing one was her laugh and her smile.. i like it..
with suzana!

monday,(yesterday) come back to the normal life which i have to face te reports and the boring classes again.. the routine is just the same for everyday. study, eat, do reports, sleep. the study then reports. them eat then sleep.. lol.. boring la...
went for my teacher to ask question on subsject that i dont really understand. the teacher was too kind and friendly. i eneded up chatting with her for 45 minutes in her office. she treated me a haagenz ice cream! oishikatta! hee..she told me a lot of things about her experiences travelling around america ..so envy! i want to go backpack travel!

haiz.. its all for today's update la.. have to start off my reports!! ja ne!! goodnite guys1

it was weekend!

didnt really had a rest after the non-stopped reports and studies.finally,the days for me to take a break and breathe come.enjoyed my friday nite going shopping,not to buy clothes(though i wanted so eagerly)and bought a body shaping exercise equipment cost 14700yen.which is,let me count,around rm500.i shared it with my senior lydia.both of us was shy to make an order with the shop assistant.and tj helped us!haha.we even asked him to order under his name!could u imagine a man buying that?tj,thanks!haha.but i think the shop assistant have known that who really need that thing.haha.dont look at me.i am shy.lolz.friday nite,planned to sleep earlier.but my brain and biological clock is has out of balance.i am super active after 1am,whithout coffee.hmm.
so.i ended up sleeping at 3.30am and woke up at 12pm.hehehe,started to hate morning especially weekend's.
so.saturday.12pm,woke up.faintly remember the wheather was like malaysia.2pm,went to family mart to buy skype credit for lydia,angela and myself!hehe.so stupid,first time bought credit using the machine and i took longer time,which postponed my meeting with tj at 2.30pm.my lunch was hotto motto boxlunch.not very nice,
was discussing about the asean fest prepartion.called krish and azmeer for idea on malaysia games which dont need any sources.and krish gave me the best one!haha.it was ting ting,he called it.wat ting ting？like a little chinese gurl's name maaaaa!watever,,haha.to knw the game's rules,i called krish continuesly in an hour.krish's level of bein patience was high!haha.so happy to hav him as frend!
me and tj,who wil hav to explain and demo the game on that day,practiced beside our kosen's field.we drew the boxes on the floor.and jumping over.haha.like children.
sunday,had meeting with other countries representatives for the asean fest,and i woke up late as i slept at 4!wore like a kampung gurl.walao!the meeting went smoothly.hehe.bought myself a knowledgeable magazine,NEWTON.hehe

Failed in exam after hard worked was 1st time in my life.i got my results of linear algebra and inorganice chem.i failed !i was so upset and disappointed with myself.why the others could do better than me asthey r younger than me.?i am 20 and they are 17.oh shit!i was really depressed.couldnt control my tears filling up my eyes.it feels no good.i hate that feeling,was really really sad.

luckily.i have had him listening to me,by my side.on the other end of the phone,his gentle,his patient,his advice,his love ,released the sadness.i felt not better but never better than this.thanks for being supportive.

幸福的

i like the way he treats me now.not the way he acted like before.what made the changes happened?i dont know,and it isnt important.
i love to get his call,i love to hear his voice,
i love to talk to him.
he listened to me,shared with me,and these are releasing my stress.making me a happy person.
i love him

no title...

today is saturday. yesterday was friday. tomorrow will be sunday, the day after tomorrow is monday..then tuesday, wedsnesday, thursday.. we learnt and memorised the names of days when we were a child, when we had just started to learn about words..without noticing how the days that we had been saying naively when we were a child would mean so much to a grown up us..
the 7 words means time,people, things and our hearts..

it will be the last day for my exam this monday..and the papers we will have would be most terrible for me.
because i havent started anything yet..
not in the mood of studying, because i am tired,
i have a cup of coffee...
eyes are opened, but the brain is shutting down slowly,
cannot think, cant focus, cant sleep.....
so, i'd just write this blog and take a nap.. charging up myself, then start my revision..
so, why dont just begin with the day i have been gone through today?

staying awake until 3am last night, thought to fnished up my organic experiment report .
but ended up with watching cartoon and online..but i had a call from fuwei.. hehehe.. happy!
woke up at 7.20am,got myself ready to go to centre of the tokyo city..
bought a bentou with tj, then rushed to the station nearest to my college,hazama station,.
because the time was limited, we had our breakfast at the station. i felt a lot of weird eyes looking at us, eating our food..
oh gosh, never seen people eating at the platform?/ ma be they really dont do this..hah
the journey took one and a half hour,from hazama to yuuraku machi station..
yuuraku machi, a place beside Ginza,the high standard place in japan..

it was really different form other parts of japan.. just like pavllion in kl compared to sg wang..
u can see the total different between these places..

our destination was emperial hotel tokyo branch..
it was the most beautiful place i have seen ever.. really nice,, elegant and luxury..

as we have already known , malaysian is famous in being late..
hmm,, it is a fact. even me and tj ourselves have been late for 10minutes..
but the thing was, we were the earliest among the students.. haiz.. see that? they were late for 30minutes!!
embberessing moment was, we didnt wear like attending semi formal wear, lol. ben foo mentioned that the wearing should be casual but smart. but we interpreted wrongly, me and tj wore jeans .. no face
we met the menteri kemajuan dan perkembangan(forgot his name, wil update with this later) and dato bakar, (update later)
he main purpose of the meeting with the menteri was to get discuss about our country's development informally.he started by giving a briefing( a loooooonnnngggg briefing) about malaysia government's plans and newest plan in altering malaysia's ecnomic develpoment.
i have been outdated with malayisa's news la.. haiyo..
lazy to tell about the details..
we had out lunch ,delicious...!!

bla bla bla bla...


we left the hotel after taking a few pictures of the hotel.
was enjoying the place all the way walking towards the railway station..
really high class la. u could see almost every shop are selling branded things.. armani collection, gap, lacoste... etc..
people walking around the area are wearing differently..old lady wears kimono, old man wears like golfer, and office man,.young man and lady wear in their own style, or wearing like western style.. children wear like a angel..

was wondering, why there are people who are sooooo rich and why there are people who are soooo poooorr??
why?? why? why??
i want to be rich!!lol..

it has been a tiring day. reached hostel at 4pm. took bath and wasting time..
gonna stay awake tonight.. but now, will take a nap first!!
update soon!

kumari talk...

went to mejiroudai.. and had dinner in an idian restaurant called kumari.
its a restaurant run by nepalese...
was expecting the curry tasted very very nice,tasted like the curry cooked by my neighbour,
but it disappointed me.. hmm.. not saying that the cruisine wasnt nice, but it wasnt as tasty as i expected.
however, the dinner was a happy and satisfied one was, we chatted for 2 hours.. about personalities, about people, about life..
talked about the graph of my life, about gurls and guys..puberty.. hahaha..

i am lucky that i got to know them,, i like to talk to them, especially sze yang,
he can read people's mind..
i like to share my feeling with lydia, she mrelease my pressure..
i have no regrets coming to tokyo kosen although the life here is busy..
because i have known sze yang, lydia and tj more,,
and i got the opportunities,the chances..

my life, if interpreted in graph, it is a porportional graph..
life is going better by chances that i got,.
i entered ibrahim school instead of smk bedong,
i got jpa scholarships,
i came to japan,
i got the chances from others to join the bureau of msaj,
i got the chance to meet people because i stayiing in tokyo area..

all are by chances, and i am lucky..
lucky that i have come this far,
lucky...

appreciate life,,..

mood...

i found myself to be more happy lately..
everything comes peacefully, without knowing,it went silently..
i feel the heart is less of burden,
the brain is light..

but today,i am not happy.. may be because i am tired..
and the day i gone through today..
tiring and boring...

fridayy!!!!

its friday!! the starting day of the weekend! but this weekend will be different as usual,,or i should say, it will be more busy than usual day..
next monday will be the organic and inorganic papers.. oh no, i haven't studied anyhting and just want to start in during this weekend.. the good news is !!!!!!!there is no meeting on this sunday!!(received mail from ben foo telling us to attend a meeting on 6th june,, )luckily,.haha
but still, i have a lot to revise....gonna be very very hardworking this weekend!! gambarre tang
chye sin!!!
didnt go to library today.. my tutor asked me to hand in our reports together and we walked back to hostel together. didnt want to lost the chance to talk and walking together like just now since we hav not been talking to each other from the day exam started..

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last nite, had a call from him,, and we talked things that we dont talk usually..
happy!!!....the most impressing one was, he said:dont talk about others, tell me about you...^^

since there is no meeting, will go to mejirodai(a place)exploring the area around us!!!
will see how good is the place!! hehe

a hot day

its stil noon time.had my lunch in hostel and went to library.a book in the library attracted me,日本の内閣。a bookthat introduce japan goverment organization.and their parliament house.they hav the highest majesty.called天皇.one of the good thing aboutthe library in kousen is that the books are new,and they would hav the whole series for every of them.
the Houses of parliament was like a palace!nice!cant share the picture here.
i had a look at an encyclopedia too.and guess what?it was children encyclopedia!the english level is quite low.suits me!haha!learnt about africa.swahili.anthony!its african language.every african can speak in swahili.and minimum 6 languages!
1pm.backed to hostel.wanted to revise.but sleepy! may be i should have a coffee for today too!hehehe.

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today had been another normal yet special day.normal but special..watdoes it mean?it was special..because it was the first day i sat for exam in japan.normal because i didnt feel anything.was boring during the exam.
i have not been talkingto my tutor since weekend.she,again acted cool.or she felt the same way towards me too?i shouldnt be so childish.

has been revising calculus.hmm,so far.not bad.i am actually worrying abt my chemistry.its on next week!gambare!
had dinner at jolly pasta with tj.
dessert@@
tj read my blog.he didnt angry with me.he said he dont care about these.which hating people makes himself unhappy instead of others.so.it is unworthy.
found myself being sensitive again..

after self study.met subasni,she told me that i am confirmed as her vice secretary.and there are tasks waiting for us right ahead.drafting cert .and asean festival report to post into msaj website.argh.is worrying about my english level!

didnt buy coffee today.but made myself a glass of coffee using my couple glass!

shinchan's favourite!haha

revision

finally,it has reached the exam day that i have been worried,matrix and calculus taken most of the time.i have no enough time for my chemistry for sure.
got tj's blog url today.and he asked 4 mine.in fact.i just bad mouthing him in the previous blog post,sorry tj!haha.
spent the day with revision.satisfied with it!
btw.tj looked tired,

oh ya.i nearly forgot abt my big discovery in my life!i found a snail.an alive snail in cabbage that i wanted to cook!oh.it is cute but disgusting!lydia told me that it's a slug,,そっか!slug looks like that!haha
the slug

coffee of the day-fire!!