happy anniversary ^^

It was 2 years ago when the love sparked.
A pure and quiet relationship has made this lasted for so long.

I still love his loudness,his cheerfulness,his cuteness.
and his sudden surprises once in a while which I couldnt believe.
The days have been tough until recently,everything changed when he has changed.
Realized that it is easy to make me shed a tear or curve my lips.
Realized that I am so flexible and sensible that his emotion and words would change my day,
from cloudy to sunny ,or vice versa.

Long distance relationship,suits me better,I think.
where I have no regret that i did that decision which everyone asked me the reason.
We have our own space,
We dont quarel that often anymore,


We miss each other more than when we are together,

We appreciate more when we got the chance to be together,
We could know how much we miss each other ,
webcam once in a while....

experience special things.





also...Surprise that made the anniversary more meaningful and unforgettable..

I was watching movie with Lydia last nigt.1.28am,got a phone call from him so i went back to my room.and that was the time i saw the blue box packed tighly ,like it has been posted,on my table.
with a lot of question marks in my mind,I opened it as if I was opening someone's thing.haha..
persuaded by him, I just opened it..guess wat!!!!!! It was from him. He was in Nagaoka and I am in Tokyo.far far away,however, i got the biggest surprise ever since we are together.It was a present for our 2nd anniversary.. felt so touched and i didnt know whether to laugh or cry.. I ended up by laughing with warm and sourly eyes..
I was so touch!(i know my description is bad,u cant feel how much i felt,nvm.. haha,i am bad at words,forgive me!)
may be you would feel these are silly, but it means a lot to me...

(long sigh) it has been two years ka... wow.. i was shocked when i realized this.
wow... i cant believe I have had him by my side for 2 years.wow... just couldnt believe that I have made a long run relationship.wow. the time flies yeah..we are becoming adults..
though.. we still have a long way to go,together, supporting and understanding each others..

I love you....

Nescafe..why dud you do this to me?????

It is 0241hrs now...I am still awake thanks to my lovely aromatic Nescafe....
Had a short shopping with lydia...then dinner with the sweet couple by having
McD...we tried the new german sausage chicken burger ..from 6pm..we chatted till
830pm..I really like to chat with sze yang...hmm..why???feel free and
Happy and I like to share my opinion with him..oso his opinion...
I was revising bio chem..found out tat I seldom fall asleep when I
Am with organic chem or bio...do I really like organic chem???but
There are so much things to remember which is my weakness !!

Argh..I shud sleep now...no mire nonsence!!!!
Heard ny stomach having band ,,signing off.. Nite!!!
(I shud delete this post when I'm back)lolx

fire drill in Tokyo Kosen^^

Thursday is supposed to be the most idle day of a week.But,still, i have to wake up early like usual as we are not allowed to stay in hostel in the morning.So , reluctantly,woke up and went to school like usual. the morning was boring and I have no class after lunch time,still, i had to rush back to classroom for the fire drill..
No explanation needed in this part right?^^
...................skip skip...............................

Then 3pm,30min after the drill ended,i attended the presentation of 5year students on their researches,which I will be doing too after 2 years.Feel curious and worry about the challenges I have to deal with,i attended.I was the only 3rd year student there,and I couldnt understand their presentation at all, too professional.haha.. And it made me felt that it was not good for me to be there,I felt so small inside the hall, like a fool listening to the profession.XD.
I wonder how the students can go to that high level of research as we learn very basic thing in 3rd year, then a bit more detailed subject in 4th year.and once we enter 5th year, the research will be started. wah. tension la.....I am not sure i could deal with all these research,or presentation or experiments though.... god bless me. haha

I like to chat with Suba, just feel nice when talking to here, or I should say,listening to her story and opinions.I think i will miss her a lot after her graduation from this kosen=(..

better to be alone...

I can't explain how I feel now, I just want to get rid all the thoughts that occupying my mind these days.I want to be alone though I long for chatting and laughing..
I forgot how to laugh like I used to.Laughing like a crazy,with her mouth big opened.
I couldn't smile from the bottom of my heart.Even when i talk,there are a lot of evasions.

I have had a lot of friends and they complimented on my good relations with people around me,
they envied my caring and kindness to people.
BUT,they do not know the truth that I didn't do much on getting friends because
I don't like socializing, racking my brain to come out with a boring and meaningless conversation topic.All I did, until today,was follow.I don;t approach people to starts a conversation,somehow, i do have the chance getting new friends.Of course, not many.
And this has brought me into a struggling in myself.

I strongly believe that I should not get close and start liking,admiring someone. When i did, there always are problems occurred. Because the weakness of the person and myself get obvious from time to time.May be long term toleration isn't noted in my dictionary. I can put up with someone by keeping quiet, but there is a limit,and now, it is close to the red line..
I am controlling myself from making the situation worse by being reticent about my inner feeling.

I realized what kind of life i have been longing for.It is just a normal life a teenager will go through.I long for a free mind, a true friend,and someone who loves me. I am going through a normal life, I have 2 true friends,soul mates,and a man who loves me.A free mind,I need you.

dont say that I am being calculating in fact you are the one who is being calculating.
dont be so confidence with yourself if you are not sure about it.
I didnt know I did the wrong thing, nor wanted to do the things you complaint after I did it.because I dont know!
I didnt want to forget too, but i forget! what am I going to do?forgetting is not my intention!
The mind is piled up with exclamation marks which i wish to shout it out(it would be the best if the target is you!!)
dont wanna think about the relationships with the Japanese,dont wanna think about being proactive, dont wanna think about how to put up with someone who has helped me before.

How glad if I am being alone now, without you bothering me, or me bothering you.
How glad if only I could be cool like now but not hesitating nor worrying about it.

To you who knows what I mean:You do realized these dont you?even you dont, I hope that You will realized this one day. At least there is someone understand how I feel and stand by my side,telling me I wasnt wrong...