filled with gloom

It is another emotional day.
I am in a gloomy mood while writing this post.

I dislike being ignored.
I dislike being neglected.
I dislike being brought into trouble that wasn't mine.
I dislike being ordered by an unsystematic person.
I islike being doubted.
I dislike everything when I am upset,
dislike everything but hate myself the most.

I laughed, I smiled, I joked, I enjoyed,
without my true soul.
I do,I learnt, I remember, I think,
without my brain.
I decided, I challenged, I tried,
without determination.

oh,what a bad day.
should I sleep early today,
get rid of everything that occupying my mind now,
hoping for a better tomorrow.
well, tomorrow wouldn't be a better one if I continued to be like this.


Till then.

窗外

寒冷的早晨，
沉闷的讲解，
被窗外传来的机械声引起注意。

被割下的校园的杂草，
一堆堆的堆在池塘周围。
浓郁的叶子的味道，
让我目不转睛的看着收拾杂草的Aunty uncle们。
看着看着，
想着想着，
突然这种想法出现了。

其实我以后成为路边打扫的杂工也不错嘛。
空气清新，
虽然会辛苦点，
但是不必用脑，不就是最好的嘛。

最近用太多脑，
用在多余的顾虑。
还有不必要的担忧。
好废。

下个星期，
就是下个星期的今天，
我明年的一年，
将会被决定。

没有期望很多，
只是期待7天后，
接下去的日子。

好期待。

ps:文章有点怪，
别见怪。=）

生病了

生病了。 在日本的第二年，终于生病了。 大家应该很奇怪为什么我说‘终于'吧。 他们说，日本人的生活太干净，使他们的自然免疫力退化，容易生病。 在日本的第一年，看见日本人个个都穿口罩。 特别是在春，秋和冬天。 问了身边的人，才知道原因。 要不是因为花粉症，就是伤风感冒。 从马来西亚的我，身体比较好吧。 但是，第二年了，应该是习惯了日本的空气，食物和生活环境吧》》生病了。 有Lydia 的照顾，太好了。 当然这个时候会想念某些人。 =.='' 上课，一位我非常仰慕的老师关心我， 有点受宠若惊。 开心=）

Old Friend ; Best Friend

It was a wonderful day having my best friend with me the whole day. It was 11 in the morning and her car parked in front of my house, waiting for me. Imagine a big sized girl, grabbing her blue hand bag, running and leaping towards the silver car. I was too happy to see her again! nevertheless. I am going shopping. hehehe She is pretty, gorgeous as usual but always make people feel fresh every time meeting her. She is one of the girl who inspires me. Has tomyam cintan Mee for our lunch before heading to Queensbay Mall in Penang The mall was not crowded as I found last few times when I came, despite it was a Saturday. spent four hours in a mall, but only walked in to 4 boutiques. which means we spent one hours averagely in one shop. hahahha. Man,see.. this is when girls meet shopping. XD didnt buy much thing but very lucky, I bought a pair of suits that I have been searching since last year.heheh.. We walked, we shopped, we chatted. The time flies. I can say we didnt stop chatting all the way long. How great I hope I can chat with a friend like this too in Japan. But I guess it is impossible. huhuhu, my japanese speaking skill is getting poorer and poorer. =( came back to Bedong at 7pm and we decided to go for movie again later on. We are watching The Smurfs!!!!! I wanted to watch soooooo badly but everytime I missed the chance. and now, it was time!! somemore watching with my best friend. hehehe.. the little blue buddies. hehe.. I 'smurf' smurfs 'Smurfly'!!!!!

Brief Update..with weary eyes

have not updated my blog for a month. I always wanted to,
but I always had excuses on not doing it.
Sometimes, I am tired,
Sometimes, I wanted to watch movies,
Sometimes, I wanted to sleep earlier but ended up surfing around.
Sometimes, I wanted to go hanging out with friends.

Have a lot of things to write down, but not knowing where to start, I gave up.
Not a professional blogger, nevermind. haha XD
I added nuffnang into my blog and it took me a night time to know more about it.

Going very well with boyfriend recently. His calls, his way of teasing and grumping towards me ( in his very special way), and flirting always make me smile. well, this is what couples will do right?=)

just came back from a nice trip with my parents 2 hours ago. Meeting my sister on the way back home, not know why, I feel great and warm to be with her, in her room. I miss her. I know she surely miss me more than I do, she is so fragile that I want to be with her most of the time, but in fact, she mentally protects me the most. sisters, the complicated but wonderful relationship.=)

And tomorrow!! yeah TOMORROW!! I am going to Penang with my best friend, Qi!!!!!!! Shopping, not needed to be explained, the greatest entertainment for girls!! ant wait for tomorrow.. hehehhehe.=P

Well, a bried update for now.gotta go to bed,so that I can be prettier for tomorrow's outing. eheheh.. Wil update soon. I promise guys!! XD
till then..Good night...

电车上的1个小时

从实习回来路途，都得坐1个小时左右的电车。
那是漫长的时间，也是我唯一会专心在下载了平时却不用的applications。
我的实习排档，开口闭口就是介绍我去旅行，而且都是谈吃的。刚开始是一星期见一次，就是说一星期只听一次，刚开始还蛮有兴趣听他的介绍，但是，现在天天都得听，开始觉得他很烦，就没有别的话题吗觉得烦了，敷衍了他，就埋头在电话里，不管了。还好他不是KY（不识趣），总算停下来了。

那一个小时路程，我开始看了下载下来的小说，是张小娴的作品。所以今天特别有感觉用话文写部落格。好久没看小说了，原来华语还是我最熟悉的。这几年，为了加强自己的英语，都是在看英语新闻，读英语故事书，写英语留言。还记得上个月为了预定台北的一间客房，对方应该是看我有中文名字，所以用华语寄了一封电邮来。我看得懂，但是回信却难倒了我，向运洁‘求问’。身边的人知道我会4，5个语言，觉得我很厉害。可是，事实不是那么好。看来我得加把劲，学好现在都是‘半桶水’的语言了。华语，英语，马来语，日语，还有我应该是每有资格说我会的淡米尔语。可是真的好想再学会淡米尔语，不到半桶也无所谓，至少我能明白一些些。=）

一边看小说，也一边与前辈同简讯。谈起了那个人的事。前辈只是轻轻问过，可是话题就留在头脑，不能离开。其实这件事是我这两年来最不想要去想的事，但是没得避免。就算是能避免的也免了，到最后是变成一个‘畏’字。简讯的其中一封，虽然会担心被当事人发现，但是内心是很想被他看见。这是一种变态吗？哈哈。不管了，为了逃避，我忍耐了一年多，难道这三年都不得不免吗？有时候真的觉得好难受。没关系啦，陈彩馨是能忍的。


没写部落各的这几个月，发生了很多很多事情。不需要指望我会写出来，因为我是名副其实的善忘，忘了发生了什么事。当然还会记得被社会关注的事，就好像马来西亚的黄色示威运动。对了，这几天常有余震，有点担心。专家预测这30年在日本会有一次大地震，4个月前是在福岛，而这将会是在东京附近。与上次的不同，将会是，伤害力更强的垂直式地震。

日本现在是夏天，可是这3个星期的气温是比春天还低。那天台风袭击日本，导致整个月就好像是6月的梅雨，雨下个不停。那天的3天2夜箱根之旅，一般是因为这种天气而泡汤了。

后天就去台湾了，台湾一个星期，在到新加坡，才回家。
不知道爸妈最近怎样了，好久没打电话回家了。

I miss my family

I miss my mama, my papa, my lovely da jie and two brothers...T.T

I miss my sister and mama the most! may be I heard their voices three days ago.
It was my mom's birthday two days ago.
I couldnt be there. I wanna ctalk and laugh with them.
I dreamed about my sister marrying her boyfriend last night.
It was too sweet that i didnt want to wake up from my dream. (as if i can control) haha.

wanna go shopping with my da jie(sister),
wanna go travel with my best friend,Feng qi.
Wanna teased by jia liang.
wanna stand beside my tall tall brother jia dong.

arghhh....
I wan see them!!...