after non stop trip to toyama, saitama and kichijioji,tired and exhausted..not wanting to do anything including writing blog that i wanted to tell so much during my trip. i took a lot of pictures. jotted down name of places i went.. but i didnt mention alot in my blog.. because i am tired!
After 5months since i came to Japan, i feel that i have changed.
i don't feel like talking to others.
i just need more time and space for myself..
i can stay in my hostel for weeks,without talking to people around me..
or i should say i don't want to talk because it is tiresome.
i hate myself to have thought like that. but the feeling just fill my heart without control.
Too bossy and determine in what she feel and think. I know i am forgetful , i cant remember a lot of things, but it doesn't mean that i want to.. i couldn't make myself remember those trivial matters..
so, I kept quite whenever argue seemed to occur..
keep quite like my father always response to my mum..
May be it is this thought that made me refuse to go Disneysea tomorrow with the girls.
i found myself couldnt associate with the others.I hate to be hypocrite.To keep smiling to the person i dOnt like..although I do when have to..
webcam with my dad through skype. and turned out to witness their squabbling.
mom was so angry that she misunderstood that dad was complaining about her to me.
So mom rose up her high pitch voice, yelling at dad.. Dad just kept quite after his explaination didnt work..
The affection and communication between us got stronger recently where we talk and missing each other more often than before..
he made our relationship public which surprised me when i was on my way back from Saitama..
couldnt control the feeling that caused my lips to curve upwards..
although it is just a trivial matter, but i meant a lot to me as he was Him.. Mr Quah that would not do such thing in public.. ^^
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