Surprise!

Second day of exam has just over. left the classroom with weary eyes, for the results of studying at the very last minute before exam) and came back with with anger and upset. Matters related to the dormitory are getting worse. Relationship between us and the Japanese are stiff now(well,may be that is my own point of view). complaints and claims are heard often. And I found myself to be very easily effected by others opinion or subjective views. I know I am unhappy about all those craps, but,a big BUT, I cant tell or argue on why I feel unfair about them. And now, there is a big decision to make again. decision that will affect the relationship between Japanese and foreigners in TNCT, now and in the future. ''Decide for yourself but not for others'',said my honeys. but sometimes, we just cant do whatever we want to. Well, I am too tired now to think about this. So to get rid of those upset thoughts from my head, hehehehehe, wanna tell you about my happening yesterday. No guessing is needed. it is about us again. hehehe

Remember the gift I mentioned that I was looking forward in the previous post?(Nah, see here in case you didnt see hehe=) and now... guess what???? I GOT HIS PRESENT for our anniversary FINALLY!!!! taa-daa!!!!!

Well,Okay, this is how it looked like when I noticed about it in my post box.XD first with curiosity I walked toward the post box, then I saw the very very familiar hand writing. At that moment, I was like,''OMG, is it him??'' And yeah, It was from him!! I was too happy that I was lost on whether to unwrap it in front of my post box where everyone might see my silly but excited face, or open it slowly in my room, enjoying the sweetness of the gift. XD Well, I was able to calm down and be rational, I decided to open it in my room.. hehe. but I was hopping up the staircase with the excitement that couldn't help showing up on my face. unwrapping the parcel( so many layers of plastic bags covered on) and I got this!!

picture he made with his precious time(on drama -.-')

hehehehhe.. He knows I like Sesame Street! The surprise made my day again. I guess this is the merit of being in a long distance relationship. =) Well,if you are not, you can do so by sending gift to your partners house too, XD HAve a good day! till then..... jya ne.. =)

分叉路口

不知不觉，又踏入了年尾。
上个月才为研究室而烦恼了很久
现在又是做决定的时候了。
人生，真的只有选择与决定吗？

最近的我很忧郁。
或许应该说，我一直都很忧郁。
其实有发现自己的部落格都是记载着我的心情，
都是在低落时写下的心情。
不喜欢这样，
但是我就是在不开心的时候才会想写部落格。
开心的事，难分享。
可能因为伤心的时间总是长过开心的时间吧。

又来到新的分叉路口,
又是做决定的时候。
心中其实有了一个决定，
但是没有信心能做到，
所以都说我还没决定。

站在这个分叉路口，
我不知所挫。
万事俱备，
只欠一个信念。

是时候证明自己能够走多远了。

Homesick

I think I miss my home.Not sure but I think I am missing them more and more.
I thought I wont miss them and have once told my senior that I will be okay for not going back home next spring and summer holiday, I said I would be fine. told the same thing too to my family before I left home last summer.
But I am missing home right now. just 3 months after I left them.

sour eyes with smile while talking about my dad.
cried after seeing my mom crying over the screen.
Happy when I got my sister posted on my wall saying she miss me badly.
Laughed like I've never laughed before when brother told me about his good news.

I am so sentimental I know, That most of my post here are about my feelings.
But I can write only when I am emo.


I am into so many things these days.
Too many things on my mind that I am so tired of thinking,
and I am lost in doing things that I suppose to do.
I doubt about many things.

3rd Anniversary

owh yea, this post should be posted on 31st October, but..hm.. I have been busy lately(excuse)LOL.


everything in last OCtober was not in good timing. We didnt celebrate our anniversary this year. but we made something for each other ans send it via post.( he said he made something ugly for me.. cant wait to get them. heheh)



Three years, it's neither long nor short. Still remembered myself saying that I wont fall for him, but finally, it turned into reality.
I have been making an album of us, all handmade, and found it a good way to release stress. because I feel happy whenever i make it.



Happy Anniversary to my love one.. <3

filled with gloom

It is another emotional day.
I am in a gloomy mood while writing this post.

I dislike being ignored.
I dislike being neglected.
I dislike being brought into trouble that wasn't mine.
I dislike being ordered by an unsystematic person.
I islike being doubted.
I dislike everything when I am upset,
dislike everything but hate myself the most.

I laughed, I smiled, I joked, I enjoyed,
without my true soul.
I do,I learnt, I remember, I think,
without my brain.
I decided, I challenged, I tried,
without determination.

oh,what a bad day.
should I sleep early today,
get rid of everything that occupying my mind now,
hoping for a better tomorrow.
well, tomorrow wouldn't be a better one if I continued to be like this.


Till then.

窗外

寒冷的早晨，
沉闷的讲解，
被窗外传来的机械声引起注意。

被割下的校园的杂草，
一堆堆的堆在池塘周围。
浓郁的叶子的味道，
让我目不转睛的看着收拾杂草的Aunty uncle们。
看着看着，
想着想着，
突然这种想法出现了。

其实我以后成为路边打扫的杂工也不错嘛。
空气清新，
虽然会辛苦点，
但是不必用脑，不就是最好的嘛。

最近用太多脑，
用在多余的顾虑。
还有不必要的担忧。
好废。

下个星期，
就是下个星期的今天，
我明年的一年，
将会被决定。

没有期望很多，
只是期待7天后，
接下去的日子。

好期待。

ps:文章有点怪，
别见怪。=）

生病了

生病了。 在日本的第二年，终于生病了。 大家应该很奇怪为什么我说‘终于'吧。 他们说，日本人的生活太干净，使他们的自然免疫力退化，容易生病。 在日本的第一年，看见日本人个个都穿口罩。 特别是在春，秋和冬天。 问了身边的人，才知道原因。 要不是因为花粉症，就是伤风感冒。 从马来西亚的我，身体比较好吧。 但是，第二年了，应该是习惯了日本的空气，食物和生活环境吧》》生病了。 有Lydia 的照顾，太好了。 当然这个时候会想念某些人。 =.='' 上课，一位我非常仰慕的老师关心我， 有点受宠若惊。 开心=）