异乡过节

新年咯

今年的第一次的雪，迎接年初一

今年的除夕夜和大年初一，一个人，
离开家乡，再是难受。虽然不是第一次了，
但是想到我节下来的四年都得这样过，更难受。
今年没有根家人上网祝贺，但是有面子书，至少让我看到爸爸分红包的脸，
哈哈

我家最帅，最可爱的男人

团员饭，桌位少了一个人，妈妈的泪流在我心中。
不想想像妈妈伤心的脸
没有大姐在身边吵吵闹闹，问她穿得好不好看，
也没有弟弟们越玩牌赌博的声音，
只有课业上的压力陪伴。
我想年尾该回家一趟了。

但是也没有那么伤心啦，
今年的新年，反而变的更有意义。
身边多了一个可爱的学妹，陪我度过大年初一。
我们交换了红包。=）

里面是心型的两张纸币，我问她为什么是RM11,而不是RM10，她说包还红包得放多一点。哈哈

更让我感动的是我的好友，送了一包邮包来，里面装的都是我最爱吃的东西，
有山楂饼啦，柠檬饼啦，耳朵饼啦，花生饼还有椰子饼。OMG,都是我的最爱。
每想到她还记得。感动，当然也很开心。
新年也变的没那么可怜了。

刚到的样子=）

猜猜红包里装的是什么=）

耳朵饼（我爱爱爱！！）

柠檬饼和山楂饼！

大家新年快乐！！

Thank you for the Memories.

Its 2012, another new year, and it is totally a new one for me.


Two days ago, I asked, what is love. What it feels. What it means, what is it.
you know what love is, when you start to care.
You know what love is, when you are giving without asking asking back.
Love, is a word that confuse mankind, Nobody has an answer for love,
as it's definition differs and depend on who,what,when, where and why.
But today,still,I am not sure know what love is. I lost him, but I got the answer I have been looking for.


May be we know what love is, when we lost it.


chose to be honest to ourselves,revealed all the problems and truth that hidden by the distance between us.
I know there is no way back anymore, because this time,
I chose to gave up. I wan to be honest to myself.
I chose not to give another chance,because I believe with what I think.
3 years is definitely a long one, I become tough, i grown up, all because of him. sadness will fade away with time, but happiness stays. Everything is going to be okay and fine,because I know you will too.
No one is right or wrong in love. that's all.


'If only if there is an equation for love.'


Thank you for all the memories.

Tears

Tears. There are tear of happiness, touch, disappointment, angry, etc. But tear for today is tear of sadness. Yea, I am sad. Well you can say "again???", but I am sad. The truth that you know clearly is not hurting until you heard it from someone else. The truth that have been bothering and upsetting you for years. The words are hurting. tearing the heart, and the soul. Tears. only if the tears can heal the wound. Only if the tears can change the fact. Only if...

Surprise!

Second day of exam has just over. left the classroom with weary eyes, for the results of studying at the very last minute before exam) and came back with with anger and upset. Matters related to the dormitory are getting worse. Relationship between us and the Japanese are stiff now(well,may be that is my own point of view). complaints and claims are heard often. And I found myself to be very easily effected by others opinion or subjective views. I know I am unhappy about all those craps, but,a big BUT, I cant tell or argue on why I feel unfair about them. And now, there is a big decision to make again. decision that will affect the relationship between Japanese and foreigners in TNCT, now and in the future. ''Decide for yourself but not for others'',said my honeys. but sometimes, we just cant do whatever we want to. Well, I am too tired now to think about this. So to get rid of those upset thoughts from my head, hehehehehe, wanna tell you about my happening yesterday. No guessing is needed. it is about us again. hehehe

Remember the gift I mentioned that I was looking forward in the previous post?(Nah, see here in case you didnt see hehe=) and now... guess what???? I GOT HIS PRESENT for our anniversary FINALLY!!!! taa-daa!!!!!

Well,Okay, this is how it looked like when I noticed about it in my post box.XD first with curiosity I walked toward the post box, then I saw the very very familiar hand writing. At that moment, I was like,''OMG, is it him??'' And yeah, It was from him!! I was too happy that I was lost on whether to unwrap it in front of my post box where everyone might see my silly but excited face, or open it slowly in my room, enjoying the sweetness of the gift. XD Well, I was able to calm down and be rational, I decided to open it in my room.. hehe. but I was hopping up the staircase with the excitement that couldn't help showing up on my face. unwrapping the parcel( so many layers of plastic bags covered on) and I got this!!

picture he made with his precious time(on drama -.-')

hehehehhe.. He knows I like Sesame Street! The surprise made my day again. I guess this is the merit of being in a long distance relationship. =) Well,if you are not, you can do so by sending gift to your partners house too, XD HAve a good day! till then..... jya ne.. =)

分叉路口

不知不觉，又踏入了年尾。
上个月才为研究室而烦恼了很久
现在又是做决定的时候了。
人生，真的只有选择与决定吗？

最近的我很忧郁。
或许应该说，我一直都很忧郁。
其实有发现自己的部落格都是记载着我的心情，
都是在低落时写下的心情。
不喜欢这样，
但是我就是在不开心的时候才会想写部落格。
开心的事，难分享。
可能因为伤心的时间总是长过开心的时间吧。

又来到新的分叉路口,
又是做决定的时候。
心中其实有了一个决定，
但是没有信心能做到，
所以都说我还没决定。

站在这个分叉路口，
我不知所挫。
万事俱备，
只欠一个信念。

是时候证明自己能够走多远了。

Homesick

I think I miss my home.Not sure but I think I am missing them more and more.
I thought I wont miss them and have once told my senior that I will be okay for not going back home next spring and summer holiday, I said I would be fine. told the same thing too to my family before I left home last summer.
But I am missing home right now. just 3 months after I left them.

sour eyes with smile while talking about my dad.
cried after seeing my mom crying over the screen.
Happy when I got my sister posted on my wall saying she miss me badly.
Laughed like I've never laughed before when brother told me about his good news.

I am so sentimental I know, That most of my post here are about my feelings.
But I can write only when I am emo.


I am into so many things these days.
Too many things on my mind that I am so tired of thinking,
and I am lost in doing things that I suppose to do.
I doubt about many things.

3rd Anniversary

owh yea, this post should be posted on 31st October, but..hm.. I have been busy lately(excuse)LOL.


everything in last OCtober was not in good timing. We didnt celebrate our anniversary this year. but we made something for each other ans send it via post.( he said he made something ugly for me.. cant wait to get them. heheh)



Three years, it's neither long nor short. Still remembered myself saying that I wont fall for him, but finally, it turned into reality.
I have been making an album of us, all handmade, and found it a good way to release stress. because I feel happy whenever i make it.



Happy Anniversary to my love one.. <3