homestay(13-14 Nov 2010)

Finally, I have a host family in Japan which I have been looking forward to.
There was a party organized by LABO association on 13th Nov,We weren't able to attend.
Was a very nice part where most of the the members are children. There a some tutors working there(not sure they get paid or not though).My host family is one of the tutors.
hmm.. it was a really impressive association because most of them are children from 3 to 20 years old. And there was a litle 9 year old girl, introducing herself in English. I have to say that her English was good. She,Kurumi, was ery active and TALKATIVE.She was talking non stop since we met,all the way from Chou Fu to Mejirodai(40min JOurney) until she was taken home by his young father.
Her father has been working in Singapore Olypus Company,that is why their English was good.lol.
Impressive huh.^^

staying one night at my host family's house in Mejirou dai,which is 30 min walking distance from my hostel, too nea la=( i expected a farther one. lol..
Anyway,she is a very active and nice woman,just like my Tutor's mum. They are different from usual Japanese.. different in the way they think, clothes they wear, and their perspectives.

kimono!!!!!!!!!!!!!hehe

The next day was a fun day too. Left her house at 1030 am to Fuchuu.She is one of the tea servers in a Square Dance party. I bet you dont know about Square Dance. let me show u^^

wonder if you realized another impressive point in this video..haha
They are all old folks!!! 4 couples in a group dancing in an fixed way. the old folks were active,"Vigorous',spirited, and energetic. I couldnt believe my eyes that the Japanese old folks can be so active joining association and dancing club like this. And there are old men performing band up on the stage! wow.. their spirit had encouraged me,that i should be more active and confident.http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Square_dance
I could see old ladies dancing as if she were 20 years old, shaking their body and move swiftly around. They dance whenever there was music!! guess what! I even saw someone flirting !! lol!!!
Was wondering if there were dubious relationship among some of them,just like how the tenagers feel when they are in such group.lol.i think too much.haha
or one or two of them in love with each other instead of they have their spouses back in their homes.lol! think too much liao!

I helped my 'mom' to give away the luch boxes and drinks. then we left at noon to get the children to another activity in Bubaigawara.
I had the chance to visit the museum. It is autumn now.. leaves are in yellow,green,red, brown and gold.. feel like they are shining in the sky, dropping with the touch of the breeze.

we had our lunch at a stone table where the floor fulled with yellow dried leaves.also had a candy floss from her!! wow.. as if I went back to my childhood time again^^ haha. I forgot how it felt untill i put in into my mouth,the candy melted as i put it into my mouth..




saw a japanese traditional tatami house with long balconies and big garden n the museum too.
post office and city hall 100 yeas ago and a primary school too.
i like the place so much.





then we went back to the square dance party again. enjoyed watching the old folks dances.of course i joined their dance too,though i was damn clumsy and unskilled with the dance. haha..had gun though.

hmm.. was a tiring day but i had had fun!!!oh ya, i met Tj's host family too but she sent him home early this morning.. she was a nice lady too. she had once lived in Malaysia for 3 yeears and her Malay was good!! nice chatting with her^^

upset and upset and upset!!!!

Now,I am very very unhappy...
Just Unhappy...

Something that you have been waiting for whole day or whole time
suddenly turned into into nothing,
being dumped,in this Thursday night,alone..

I was just trying to remedy our relationship,
but again,again and again..
ended up with failures,
because of such trivial promises that were broken .

I am not saying that I feel alone(although i do feel alone)
I supposed to be outing instead of typing out my feeling out here..
I hate this..
Hate that i feel alone,
hate that i am being left out
hate that the promise broke
hate this feeling overwhelming me!!!

give me back my Thursday!!!!

期待的红叶

末夏，窗外的蝉鸣渐渐消失
凉爽的风把郁闷的夏天赶走，
迎接秋天。

十月了，绿叶依然在雨中汹涌晃摇
天气突冷，以为秋天不来了，冬天早到了。
心情也随着天气而低落，感伤。
盼望着上学路上的那棵大树染上橙红色

等不及东京的红叶，就去了长冈
无数的来电，几翻考虑，再加上斗嘴，
终于到了长冈
迎接我的是那张灿烂的笑容。









路途遥远，但是那相见的心情，
都是值得的
开心，是最好的形容词吧=)

难忘，幸福，美丽的秋天

happy anniversary ^^

It was 2 years ago when the love sparked.
A pure and quiet relationship has made this lasted for so long.

I still love his loudness,his cheerfulness,his cuteness.
and his sudden surprises once in a while which I couldnt believe.
The days have been tough until recently,everything changed when he has changed.
Realized that it is easy to make me shed a tear or curve my lips.
Realized that I am so flexible and sensible that his emotion and words would change my day,
from cloudy to sunny ,or vice versa.

Long distance relationship,suits me better,I think.
where I have no regret that i did that decision which everyone asked me the reason.
We have our own space,
We dont quarel that often anymore,


We miss each other more than when we are together,

We appreciate more when we got the chance to be together,
We could know how much we miss each other ,
webcam once in a while....

experience special things.





also...Surprise that made the anniversary more meaningful and unforgettable..

I was watching movie with Lydia last nigt.1.28am,got a phone call from him so i went back to my room.and that was the time i saw the blue box packed tighly ,like it has been posted,on my table.
with a lot of question marks in my mind,I opened it as if I was opening someone's thing.haha..
persuaded by him, I just opened it..guess wat!!!!!! It was from him. He was in Nagaoka and I am in Tokyo.far far away,however, i got the biggest surprise ever since we are together.It was a present for our 2nd anniversary.. felt so touched and i didnt know whether to laugh or cry.. I ended up by laughing with warm and sourly eyes..
I was so touch!(i know my description is bad,u cant feel how much i felt,nvm.. haha,i am bad at words,forgive me!)
may be you would feel these are silly, but it means a lot to me...

(long sigh) it has been two years ka... wow.. i was shocked when i realized this.
wow... i cant believe I have had him by my side for 2 years.wow... just couldnt believe that I have made a long run relationship.wow. the time flies yeah..we are becoming adults..
though.. we still have a long way to go,together, supporting and understanding each others..

I love you....

Nescafe..why dud you do this to me?????

It is 0241hrs now...I am still awake thanks to my lovely aromatic Nescafe....
Had a short shopping with lydia...then dinner with the sweet couple by having
McD...we tried the new german sausage chicken burger ..from 6pm..we chatted till
830pm..I really like to chat with sze yang...hmm..why???feel free and
Happy and I like to share my opinion with him..oso his opinion...
I was revising bio chem..found out tat I seldom fall asleep when I
Am with organic chem or bio...do I really like organic chem???but
There are so much things to remember which is my weakness !!

Argh..I shud sleep now...no mire nonsence!!!!
Heard ny stomach having band ,,signing off.. Nite!!!
(I shud delete this post when I'm back)lolx

fire drill in Tokyo Kosen^^

Thursday is supposed to be the most idle day of a week.But,still, i have to wake up early like usual as we are not allowed to stay in hostel in the morning.So , reluctantly,woke up and went to school like usual. the morning was boring and I have no class after lunch time,still, i had to rush back to classroom for the fire drill..
No explanation needed in this part right?^^
...................skip skip...............................

Then 3pm,30min after the drill ended,i attended the presentation of 5year students on their researches,which I will be doing too after 2 years.Feel curious and worry about the challenges I have to deal with,i attended.I was the only 3rd year student there,and I couldnt understand their presentation at all, too professional.haha.. And it made me felt that it was not good for me to be there,I felt so small inside the hall, like a fool listening to the profession.XD.
I wonder how the students can go to that high level of research as we learn very basic thing in 3rd year, then a bit more detailed subject in 4th year.and once we enter 5th year, the research will be started. wah. tension la.....I am not sure i could deal with all these research,or presentation or experiments though.... god bless me. haha

I like to chat with Suba, just feel nice when talking to here, or I should say,listening to her story and opinions.I think i will miss her a lot after her graduation from this kosen=(..

better to be alone...

I can't explain how I feel now, I just want to get rid all the thoughts that occupying my mind these days.I want to be alone though I long for chatting and laughing..
I forgot how to laugh like I used to.Laughing like a crazy,with her mouth big opened.
I couldn't smile from the bottom of my heart.Even when i talk,there are a lot of evasions.

I have had a lot of friends and they complimented on my good relations with people around me,
they envied my caring and kindness to people.
BUT,they do not know the truth that I didn't do much on getting friends because
I don't like socializing, racking my brain to come out with a boring and meaningless conversation topic.All I did, until today,was follow.I don;t approach people to starts a conversation,somehow, i do have the chance getting new friends.Of course, not many.
And this has brought me into a struggling in myself.

I strongly believe that I should not get close and start liking,admiring someone. When i did, there always are problems occurred. Because the weakness of the person and myself get obvious from time to time.May be long term toleration isn't noted in my dictionary. I can put up with someone by keeping quiet, but there is a limit,and now, it is close to the red line..
I am controlling myself from making the situation worse by being reticent about my inner feeling.

I realized what kind of life i have been longing for.It is just a normal life a teenager will go through.I long for a free mind, a true friend,and someone who loves me. I am going through a normal life, I have 2 true friends,soul mates,and a man who loves me.A free mind,I need you.

dont say that I am being calculating in fact you are the one who is being calculating.
dont be so confidence with yourself if you are not sure about it.
I didnt know I did the wrong thing, nor wanted to do the things you complaint after I did it.because I dont know!
I didnt want to forget too, but i forget! what am I going to do?forgetting is not my intention!
The mind is piled up with exclamation marks which i wish to shout it out(it would be the best if the target is you!!)
dont wanna think about the relationships with the Japanese,dont wanna think about being proactive, dont wanna think about how to put up with someone who has helped me before.

How glad if I am being alone now, without you bothering me, or me bothering you.
How glad if only I could be cool like now but not hesitating nor worrying about it.

To you who knows what I mean:You do realized these dont you?even you dont, I hope that You will realized this one day. At least there is someone understand how I feel and stand by my side,telling me I wasnt wrong...